I'm filled with emotions and have thought so much inside.
Yet when I want to pen it down, I've got nothing out.

When one grows up, we tend to be more careful with our words.
Not to say things that hurt others, not to say things to anger others.

To be honest? Like really.
When things get too honest, people gets hurt.
Keep to urself? Ouch
It just build up inside not knowing when it'll explode.

What will you do if you need to say it out knowing it will just worsen the situation?

Will you say it out just to let people know how you feel OR
will you keep it inside because you know you have to.

TO SHUT UP OR TO SHOUT OUT LOUD.
YOU CHOOSE.

On the other hand;
Its so irritating to get angry, I'm really envy those who do not.
Usually, these people are:-

1) People who are too lazy to react to anger
2) People who talk things nicely; does not gets irritated
3) People who are too kind

Option 1- People gets even irritated with their ignorance.

Option 2- Where to find this kind of people?

Even those who attend church every Sunday gets angry or irritated. Who dont?
When I was young, I used to think they're the kindest soul.
Now that I'm older, I know they're just normal human beings.

Option 3- They are the worse.

I knew of one before. I cant sense anger in him at all. One of a kind.
When I'm sad, he'll be by my side w/o me telling that I need his shoulder.
When I'm upset, he'll always know how to put me a smile on my face.
He is perfect in every way.

I thought I was lucky.

However, I overlooked something call "changes".
Everything on Earth has changed, so will men.
Nevertheless, he started to change too.

From option 3 slowly to option 2-
I started to find faults with him which I never did before.
He started to apologise for things that he dont even knew.
I kept telling him that THAT was the reason why we quarrel even more.

Slowly... he knew and tried to change...

From option 2 to 1-
This is the stage whereby he learnt anger! He started to ignore me when I gets angry and insisted that it was my fault and he should not be the one who apologise. He thought its so stupid to argue over such thing. Strangely, he is right yet I'll get even more angry that thinking back, he did not try to please me like the last time round.

Then I realise, its all thanks to me that things turn up this way & I'm like making myself mad.

Thinking back, I'm really angry of the things he said just now.
Thinking back, It was really his fault just now.

Still..



From a stranger to a friend, then close friend and now, a soulmate.

Though contradicting, I'm happy that he changes.
Not just a guy who pretend, but one who is true.

I believe there is reason for every change.

When we were just friends, he just wanna be by my side.
When we just started out, he just want to see me smile.
And now that we're together, he just want me to understand.

I feel happy to know him more n more everyday.
I love to laugh wth him at every little silly things.
I love to share everything with him.
I love everything abt him. Well, almost.

Although when I get upset, I'll feel he doesnt love/treasure me like before.
But looking back, he really gives in to me alot.

I know because although we quarrel much more now, my heart only grows fonder.


Just remember..
When one gets angry, every faults abt him will all pour in.
But to think of it, surely, there are more good things than bad.

I'mstillaluckygurl.

This is love.
Love brings changes.
Learn to accept the changes.












I remember I've a friend who is very kind too!
But her soulmate says otherwise.

Think everyone shouldnt keep putting a brave front,
When you wants to get angry, then get angry!
Those who accept the way you're,
are ur true friends.

Now, tell me.. who don't know anger? =)











I'm super angry just now.
Feeling much better now.

Luckily I still love him.
Nvm..Just ignore him for awhile more. *wink*